New Hampshire

This Thanksgiving I share the time with my friends in the church. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving Day! As a Christian I should go to church every weekend to visit my sisters and brothers. But I am a bad Christian, in order to earn money I have to work on weekend, so I have been 7 months didn’t go to church. I missed my friends so much. So I decide to go New Hampshire to have Thanksgiving Day together with my friends.

During the 7 months I worked in the hospital as a Personal Care Attendant, I worked in other people’s house as a baby sitter. I worked at Dunking Donuts sell coffee. I met so many people during this period. Some of them treat me so bad and hurt my heart. The employer didn’t pay me enough money, the customer has bad attitude to me, people looked at me in an arrogant way. I can’t feel love, friendship, kindness. Only in the church I can feel love and peaceful. People console each other, we are the people who realize our guilty and want to repent. But most people don’t think they are wrong, they keep doing guilty things. Sometimes when I really hurt by other people, I cried. Not because I am so weak, I am so sad. I am sad for the world.

Ernest Hemingway said: The world is wonderful, we should strive for it! I don’t agree with the first part, but I believe we should strive for it!

At New Hampshire sisters and brothers together sing the Hyms. We hike the mountain, play the Kayak on the lake, eat turkeys together. At that moment, I felt love and friendship. When they know I had difficult time live in America, they pray for me. They try to find ways to help me. I felt like I was in a family and people do care about me. I don’t know what the truth of the world, but I don’t believe in Money, rights and power. In today’s society, most people’s idol is Money! Most people working very hard to buy a BMW, the tiffany Jewelry, a huge house near the ocean in order to satisfy our body and conceit.

Several days ago, I had a conversation with my boss. He always benefits himself, but fucks everyone else. I said the biggest difference between I and him is: If both of us earned 10 million dollars, he will spend 10 millions dollars by himself on house, drug, car, or even prostitute. But I will donate 8 million to Children who had cancer, who still struggle with hunger. That’s why I had never depression even I failed. I am struggle not for myself only.

New Hampshire is a place I can wash my heart, when I donate the money to children who had cancer, to students who didn’t have enough money for school, I feel very happy. Even now I am still worry about my own tuition. But I know they are harder than me, at least I have enough food to eat.

I know god is always with me. When I was a teenager, I was the one who is very selfish and only care about myself. But something happened to me and I changed. I am happy I have more and more responsibility for the society. Thank God!

I believe we should strive for the world!